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Something i wrote for my beau :)
...rememembering this makes me smile

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I’ll watch you close your eyes
And drift away
Appreciating every second spent
Just where we lay
Knowing any other second spent with you
Just isn’t the same
Nothing between our frames
I know now beauty exists
And I want to lie here forever
So I’ll savour this moment
So I can relive it over and over again

Katie Liane 2009

Okay...soooo....American Idol...

Ive been a big fan of American Idol since my homeslice Sophie introduced it to me back in 2006/07. Her mum used to send her copies of it through the post during our first year (i know, crazy right! lol) and since then my life hasnt been the same. All the stereotypes the world has for Americans all proved they were true in just five minutes of watching this program! friggin awsome! lol

and anyhoes, i'm an avid youtuber! i can say i'm apart of that community! lol but theres this one guy who I came accross that I love and his name is Andrew Garcia. and i've been watching his videos avidly for a few months now. The moment I had heard he had stepped onto the American Idol scene the obsession has arisen again, not even the lack of a television, let alone a sky box, can stop me watching him on his journey! oh HELL NO! lol. so i thought i'd do a quick blog, say ALL should check him out, support him and cheer A-N-D-R-E-W G-A-R-C-I-A!!!!!! :)



p.s. how the crap do the judges get off getting rid of Tori Kelly?!! she's amazing!! been following her on youtube for a while too! (without sounding perverted! haha lols) x

It Shouldn’t Be This Easy

when you actually think about it..............

It Shouldn’t Be This Easy

It shouldn’t be this easy to break away
Surely there should be obstacles
Tracks, or something getting in our way
Surely fate has other plans for you and I?
Cause it shouldn’t be this simple to break from my guy

I always thought love would overrule our head
In my dreams this was the case
And In reality I always chose my head instead
And I thought when the time came
It would be impossible, and I’d never have the need to
Break away

And now the time is here
And its simple clean cut
As long as the heart steers clear
But surely it shouldn’t be this easy to break free
I had dreamt you all my life; you were gonna be my baby
But the reality of life has made me naive
As I imagine how easy it is to pack and leave


Loves supposed to be forever
Like the story’s in Disney
Sposed to wake me from sleepy
And live forever after happy
Love is supposed to be complicated
In the fact you’re unable to leave
But why is it so simple
That I can even do it figuratively

Shouldn’t you be holding me back,
Begging me to stay?
Trying to convince me by saying
‘Your life will never be the same’
That there’s nothing that compare to us?
Cause though I know love isn’t a dream
Baby, it just shouldn’t be this easy to leave.

Katie Liane 2010

Jus trynna explain a few things.........


I Can’t Love You

Didn’t realise how angry I was until now
Till she released it
And made me realise somehow
How much you hurt me
And ripped away at my walls
Told me those three words
That I found impossible to believe
Always thought I’d fall for them
But I’m grown now
And not so naive

I can’t love you
Cause its just too late
I can’t let you in
Cause it’s only destined for heartbreak
And I can’t forgive
Cause it’s been so long
And I have to let go
Cause you just keep it going on and on
And one of has to let go
And I’ll have to it cause you could never admit
Just where you went wrong

I used to accept it the way it was
People said I should make a change
But I was convinced it was a road I shouldn’t cross
Had it right that you and I were at a loss
No point in trying
Cause to you I was forgotten memory
Too hard to get back; so easier to keep lost
And you had the time for everyone but I
Didn’t care about how many tears I cried
And now the years have passed
And the same bullshit has been able to last
Cause now you’re only realising
Jus what you allowed to pass

But no one more than me
Knows just how to leave
Cause I had an expert coach
One who new the bitter cold approach
To leave the person in pieces
And you worked your magic
In the form of me
And now I cant love you cause it’s just too late
Cause I know now it’s only destined for heartbreak.

Katie Liane 2010

If This Is Love...

So i haven't written in what seems like FOREVER. probably because it was all about how love/cupid(? lol) had forgotten about me and i was a sick of men etc etc lol but that has all changed now. and i just wrote this and thought I'd post it (like usual).......enjoy.



If This Is Love…

I don’t know if how I feel about you is right
And I can’t plan the rest of my life
But I know without you I’d hide in the dark
Because you have been my light

I don’t know where we’ll be in a year’s time
Let alone two
So for now all I can do is write a love song for you
Because I don’t know what love is
If this is it at all
And then if it is, I don’t ever want to let go
Because this love has been hard enough to find
And to let go of it is to forget precious time

What I do know is it hasn’t always been this right
The turbulence was strong before we hit our stride
And now we can taste the fruits of our flight
Knowing that someday you are going to leave
And waking mornings you’ll no longer be within sight
But a piece left in my heart along with memories of our life
And that’ll do for later, but now I’m enjoying our height

And if this is love, even with expiration
Then I will love you with all my heart
With no hesitation
Watch the sun rise and fall with you
Allow myself to fall for you
And know that you are my first
But you’ll never be the last
Yet the only man I have ever
Truly let touch my heart.

Katie Liane 2010

(untitled)

so whilst i was sorting my stuff out for assesment i started to find a few poems i had written on the back and on bits of layout pads. this one i wouldnt let myself to read it since i wrote it. dont know why, perhaps the reality of something, like actually letting someone in and allowing myself to be vunerable for the first time ever. and this is about my mr man in my life, and when he left for a few days to go back home to Brooklyn. I don't like the last line, i would prefer to change it. but it is what it is, and i'm leaning to let it stay the way it is. oh, and its (untitled). LOVE

I miss you
But I won't allow myself to think
To do so
Is the realisation
That you're not here
We always get so close
But your circumstances make you dissapear
And though I don't allow myself to
Depend on you
There's a part of me that does
And thats the part I just can't breathe
Until you're back with me
Wrapping my body
Like a hand perfectly fitting a glove.

drag queens & polaroids

So basically its 1.01am and i'm absolutely nackered. assessment couldnt come any quicker. the tutors weren't joking that this year (3rd year) would fly by so damn fast....They forgot to mention there would be a lack of sleep involved. last term i took the time to go to bed before 12am but so far has been unsucessful this term with the run up to the crunch.

All i really wanna do is have one day to just chillax, spend the day in my pj's and watch chick flicks. or even just to cuddle up in the arms of my boyfriend and just lay there and talk. we could even watch martin. i dont love it, but i love it that he finds it soooooo damn funny and i'm still dont get the humour, wondering whats sooooo damn funny lol. maybe its an american thing? lol

and i still have to write my dissertation, and i'm upset that i didnt give myself enough time to research properly, constantly trying to avoid it because i dislike reading so much. and i constantly blame that on my dyslexia, however i feel thats more me telling myself that i can't do it, 'the shrink says i'm crap at it, so its true'. wrong attutitude. in truth i feel it takes sooo much energy outta me cause i miss read lines and then they get all confuzzled and then an age to read. bleh.

and finally, i havent written a poem in FOREVER. i cant wait till i have the time to write, i think this is the first time i've gone this long without writing. sure i get my lil dry spells of no inspiration that could last for a month or two, but this long? damn. my brain must be confizzled with design, and pictures of drag queens and square foots lol.

and now off to sleep, it seems to be getting harder everyday this week to get up with all these late nights.

love x

and p.s. above is one of the coolest drag images i could find in my quest for a a drag cabaret poster i'm doing. i'm sure one day i'll get round to posting my work. and also fill in about one of the 2nd years on my course trying to steal last years d&ad winners work along with another designers work. she obviously underestermated us (use that loosely as i didnt find it! haha) 3rd years!!!