About You

About You

You don’t deserve a love song
But I’m gonna write you one anyway
Cause as much as the wounds you left
Burn me inside
The truth is I can’t forget you
No matter how hard I try
And the hardest thing is to say goodbye
And despite the way you chose
I still finding myself stopping
And feel my heart coming to blows

Cause baby don’t you know you had me
More than a minute
More than two
More than three or four
And the moments I could have fallen for you
You’d have me till you close down
Even the stars would fall like my heart
At the disappointment of returning back to start

And some days I get by
I don’t even have to try
And some day’s baby I miss you by my side
The nights are cold without you by my side
And I was falling when you’d kiss my neck
Tell me I was beautiful
But the moment you realised you’d let
You feelings slip; you’d close up and forget
That there were two
Cause baby, you always forgot about me
It was always about you.

KLN 2010

Baby

so my baby died today and i can't believe it. i will miss you forever i love you. this is for you.

Baby

I’ll miss you more each day
Every second just wont be the same
Walk in with your welcome
Full of joy and love
Now with you gone
My heart is stuck
Stuck without you
Stuck without us

You were my shoulder to cry on
When things went bad
Always loved me
And come running back
And living without you is unbearable
Thought you were like Michael Jackson
Eternal

What do I do without you now?
I can feel you’re spirit saying I’ll make it somehow
But it doesn’t make it right
Or any safer knowing you not here tonight
To watch over me, over us
Only to wake the day with the same amount of love
Like you haven’t seen us for days
Even months

Cause I love you more than any human
Any man
You were silent, listened
And would always understand
And loved me back unconditionally
You’d follow me around endlessly
And now what is life to be
Without you here my love?
Without you here my baby?

r.i.p baby xxxx

KLN

Heartless

finally found the word for what you are.....

H<3artless

I packed my bags
Long before you packed yours
For months now
I’ve been eyeing up that door
But something always held me back
Always brought me back in
And no matter how hard I tried to fight it
You always brought me back in

And I always assumed you were happy in this life
I was the only one
To point out our strife
Trynna make it work
God it hurt
Over and over you shot me down
Wanted you so bad that I stuck round
And now it’s all said and done
I took too many bullets now
Cause its turned into a hit and run

And I’ll never understand how a man
Can be so heartless
Gave him all I could bare
And he still loves himself more than us
Cause I know later its gonna be a knife in my heart
To see you give someone else
Which should have been my part
If I’m still hurt by then
Then its gonna pull me apart

Cause I gave you me
And return I came back empty
As usual you filled you cup to the top
Turned your back and forgot
That this is was a two way street
And people always wanna talk
But they’ll never know watcha did to me
Cause now I’m laying here dead on the floor
Trying to resuscitate myself from all the heartache
From the burning you did inside
From everyone believing you are a nice guy
And me living the lie
Telling myself it’s worth the pain if he can spell L.O.V.E
Surprise, surprise that I didn’t see
Guess heartless is your speciality.

Rollercoaster

Rollercoaster

I’m like a rollercoaster
Going round and round
Just when I think I’ve found peace
Reality brings me back down
Whenever I’m happy I feel bad
Whenever I’m down I feel sad
And I can’t seem to find the balance
Between I miss you
And the needed goodbye
The days are filled with this rollercoaster
And I can’t help but cry
And I wonder if you even care
Or contemplated on me
I spend my days reminiscing how it used to be
Before you changed
Before you gave up on us
And we only knew each other by name.

KLN 2010

Trouble Sleeping

Trouble Sleeping

I can’t sleep
Cause I’m thinking bout you
Bout before and us two
How it was before and the things you said
Going round and round in circles
Inside my head
Making it impossible to go to bed

Keep thinking bout the words
Like vomit to my ears
Telling me it was all a mistake
Your empty goodbye
Only emphasised the heartache
Thinking back to days earlier
Wishing only I knew what I know now
Then I coulda made the clean break

All I can think about
Are the words I never got to say
Forget them all in your presence
And now I remember since you walked away
Trying to comprehend your words
That now continues to plague
Me, my body ever single day
Wanted to ask how you feel now
Wondering how you’re doing and if you ever think of me?
If there’s anything you’d change
Like you should have broken it properly

I wonder if you have trouble sleeping
Just like me
Whether or not you also struggle to breathe
Cause the way you left has led to me to believe
That I meant nothing; leaving me with endless tears
And I feel if that’s not your notion
Then you should clear it up promptly

Cause I can’t sleep
With these questions running through my mind
Heads working overtime
I know friendship could never work with you and I
Only gonna see you as my guy
And to see you with another will make me cry
Cause its not about whether it was good or bad
Or whether ending was right or wrong
It was about the principle of being with someone for so long
That you part with them on good terms
With respect and love
And not leave them with heartburns.

KLN

Don't Wanna

Don't Wanna

I don’t wanna look at another photo of you
Till the day I die
Cause I can’t feel anything for you
For how you said goodbye
And as far as I’m concerned
That’s one less tear cried
To the man who never even tried

I don’t to hear your name
For as long as I walk this earth
Cause if I hear it
It’ll only flashback the memories
And it’ll hurt
How I gave you more than you deserved
And stuck by you foolishly
Despite how much it hurt

I don’t want to be in your presence
For as long as I can breathe
Don’t want to share the same air as you
Your toxic may make me again foolish and naïve
About every time you said you’d change your ways
And I’d believe
Believe so bad cause I wanted it to work
That I’d always put you first

And I don’t want to remember you
For as long as I can reminisce
Cause the pain you’ve caused
Is more than deserving to be missed
I don’t believe remembering you is worth
The small times remembering the good
And the most part the bad
Reminding myself of what we could have had
Knowing you couldn’t change let alone the stars
And fully knowing it’s your bad.


KLN 2010

Now That You’re Gone

Now That You’re Gone

I hate seeing you everywhere I go
Everywhere I turn
Can’t you just leave me alone?
I let you in and now you’re on my skin
My walls and my bed linen
You’re on my heart and I can’t believe this is it
And I try to swallow it whilst I sit

Had you for so long and now don’t know where to go
I’m straggling between the lines
Of missing you and I should have left before so
I’ve become numb to everything
And I count down the days since we last spoke
When you left me on my doorstep
And broke everything piece by piece

I try to put you to the back of my mind
But you still creep into my head
And every morning I wake and it’s working overtime
Cause I’m trying to make sense of it all
And put a year of you in a box under my bed
Forget you in 11 days along with everything you ever said
Cause it just all seems like lies
Even the way you said goodbye

And I wonder if you sat and thought about me
If you feel the way I have
If you even care, if you’ve even felt bad
Questioned your decision or thought if only we had
Worked a little harder or if you had opened up
If you could have been honest or mentioned love
Taken your time to cherish what you had in your arms
And regret all of your harm

Cause one moment I will hate you
The next I’ll miss
Then I’ll remind my self of the list
Where you tried to break me down
But now your everywhere I walk
And it’s such a struggle to pull myself back
From the heartache you brought.

KLN 2010

.....

Gave you all I had to give
And got nothing back
Fought so hard in this war
But you forgot what you had
I wanted a better future
But you changed sides
And now it's almost over
There's no one left alive

Cause I put you first
And you'd push me away
Everythings telling me to leave
But still I stay
And I can't explain
Why I'm so weak this way
When I deserve better
Than just O.K