If This Is Love...

So i haven't written in what seems like FOREVER. probably because it was all about how love/cupid(? lol) had forgotten about me and i was a sick of men etc etc lol but that has all changed now. and i just wrote this and thought I'd post it (like usual).......enjoy.



If This Is Love…

I don’t know if how I feel about you is right
And I can’t plan the rest of my life
But I know without you I’d hide in the dark
Because you have been my light

I don’t know where we’ll be in a year’s time
Let alone two
So for now all I can do is write a love song for you
Because I don’t know what love is
If this is it at all
And then if it is, I don’t ever want to let go
Because this love has been hard enough to find
And to let go of it is to forget precious time

What I do know is it hasn’t always been this right
The turbulence was strong before we hit our stride
And now we can taste the fruits of our flight
Knowing that someday you are going to leave
And waking mornings you’ll no longer be within sight
But a piece left in my heart along with memories of our life
And that’ll do for later, but now I’m enjoying our height

And if this is love, even with expiration
Then I will love you with all my heart
With no hesitation
Watch the sun rise and fall with you
Allow myself to fall for you
And know that you are my first
But you’ll never be the last
Yet the only man I have ever
Truly let touch my heart.

Katie Liane 2010

(untitled)

so whilst i was sorting my stuff out for assesment i started to find a few poems i had written on the back and on bits of layout pads. this one i wouldnt let myself to read it since i wrote it. dont know why, perhaps the reality of something, like actually letting someone in and allowing myself to be vunerable for the first time ever. and this is about my mr man in my life, and when he left for a few days to go back home to Brooklyn. I don't like the last line, i would prefer to change it. but it is what it is, and i'm leaning to let it stay the way it is. oh, and its (untitled). LOVE

I miss you
But I won't allow myself to think
To do so
Is the realisation
That you're not here
We always get so close
But your circumstances make you dissapear
And though I don't allow myself to
Depend on you
There's a part of me that does
And thats the part I just can't breathe
Until you're back with me
Wrapping my body
Like a hand perfectly fitting a glove.

drag queens & polaroids

So basically its 1.01am and i'm absolutely nackered. assessment couldnt come any quicker. the tutors weren't joking that this year (3rd year) would fly by so damn fast....They forgot to mention there would be a lack of sleep involved. last term i took the time to go to bed before 12am but so far has been unsucessful this term with the run up to the crunch.

All i really wanna do is have one day to just chillax, spend the day in my pj's and watch chick flicks. or even just to cuddle up in the arms of my boyfriend and just lay there and talk. we could even watch martin. i dont love it, but i love it that he finds it soooooo damn funny and i'm still dont get the humour, wondering whats sooooo damn funny lol. maybe its an american thing? lol

and i still have to write my dissertation, and i'm upset that i didnt give myself enough time to research properly, constantly trying to avoid it because i dislike reading so much. and i constantly blame that on my dyslexia, however i feel thats more me telling myself that i can't do it, 'the shrink says i'm crap at it, so its true'. wrong attutitude. in truth i feel it takes sooo much energy outta me cause i miss read lines and then they get all confuzzled and then an age to read. bleh.

and finally, i havent written a poem in FOREVER. i cant wait till i have the time to write, i think this is the first time i've gone this long without writing. sure i get my lil dry spells of no inspiration that could last for a month or two, but this long? damn. my brain must be confizzled with design, and pictures of drag queens and square foots lol.

and now off to sleep, it seems to be getting harder everyday this week to get up with all these late nights.

love x

and p.s. above is one of the coolest drag images i could find in my quest for a a drag cabaret poster i'm doing. i'm sure one day i'll get round to posting my work. and also fill in about one of the 2nd years on my course trying to steal last years d&ad winners work along with another designers work. she obviously underestermated us (use that loosely as i didnt find it! haha) 3rd years!!!