DEAR AARON.....

dear aaron, in case you didnt know, i spent a day and a half crying over you, then i realised WTF am i doing? after all the controlling, condescending, selfish, self involved freak has now gone, i can finally be myself without being told i am wrong, that im not good enough, that i have to change for your agenda (because according to you the world arrolves around you) and for you who didn't know, he's an asshole that treated me like less than the dirt on his shoe. and if you think i spent anymore time weeping over you, sweetheart, you need to check yourself. i can pick anyone up -tonight 2 numbers BREDRIN. thats right, now i'll waste no more time on you than you did to me. have a miserable life sweetheart, thats all you are worth :)

DEAR ARRON.....

dear aaron, in case you didnt know, i spent a day and a half crying over you, then i realised WTF am i doing? after all the controlling, condescending, selfish, self involved freak has now gone, i can finally be myself without being told i am wrong, that im not good enough, that i have to change for your agenda (because according to you the world arrolves around you) and for you who didn't know, he's an asshole that treated me like less than the dirt on his shoe. and if you think i spent anymore time weeping over you, sweetheart, you need to check yourself. i can pick anyone up -tonight 2 numbers BREDRIN. thats right, now i'll waste no more time on you than you did to me. have a miserable life sweetheart, thats all you are worth :)

Friends Pt 2

Friends Pt 2

Don’t think I could ever conclude
Just how you do
How you come, how you stay
How you leave, you make it easy
To walk away
Don’t hold it against me if friends
Just aint on my agenda
When what you did is all I can remember

All the good has gone
Your true colours have been undone
And I can see you in the dark
I can see you have no heart
Now I know I never knew who you are
Cause you brought the clouds over my sunshine
And smiled as you did it

You had it twisted
You thought pain was love
And love was pain
Everyday we went round and round
Doing it again
I was road kill if I was blocking your way
You never knew what happiness felt like
And I doubt you will one day

Last famous words
‘still want to be friends’
excuse me if that’s not in my plans
as I can’t go round again
once was enough, twice was a fool
Eternity for my heart would be cruel

Goodbye ‘friend’ into my black
I’m never doing that again
I’ll never looking back.

KLN Oct 2010

Part Time

Personal experiences inspired this, a ma gurl named it. learn to be better, fast

Part Time

Don’t need no part time friends
No part time lover
They say if it’s fo sure
You’ll handle the truth and not stutter
But already I see the cracks in the faith
Were starting to slip outta place

They say if it’s meant to be
It’ll all come back to me
Before I was young and innocent
Only knew how to be naive
Now I’m trynna be the friend I need
And if you cant handle the truth
Then maybe its time you leave

I aint got no time to stop and stare
Talk about the minor tings
Sweetheart I don’t care
I want you here for the end of time
But if you don’t feel the same
Don’t waste my time
Be upfront and don’t lie
Honesty will get you far
And we can either stay or say goodbye

Aint got no time for a part time
Lover or friend
I’m in it for the good
(We’ll get through the bad)
You’ll be the best friend I ever had
Cause if you’re here for the long haul
We can make it through the times
We have to run or when we gotta crawl
And if your not here for tomorrow
Then baby, spose you better be straight up and ball.

Closure

I can't make you love me
i can't make you stay
but i'm not gonna say
its easy to watch you to walk away
cause i poured my soul into you
and that didnt make it okay

you say you gotta go
and i can't understand why
what is it that what i have to offer
is never enough
you say someone else out there
can give you the right kind of love
and i ask myself then what where we doing
standing still in time
not really moving?

i loved you even when i shouldnt
i loved you even though you wouldnt
recipricate, left me dead
for days on end
rsusitate myself in the end
after i had wiped away all of the tears
but i still carry you with me
by the marks on my sould, looking for someone elses to borrow

cause though i cant watch you leave
and you say we dont have what it takes to make it work
and though you ripped my heart to shreads
that till the day i die i think it'll hurt
you could never love me the way i deserve
becuase you'll always think you come first
first before my heart, first before yours
first before my love that you found so easy to ignore

i wont say its been easy
but the days have gotten better
breathing has become easier
and the load i beared has got lighter
i can now see the stars shine through the dark blue sky
and each day i'm not with you
they get brighter :)