Sweetheart

sweetheart, don't you wish her sugar
was as good as mine
don't you wish her richness
reached to fyne
cause you'll never find another i
no sweetheart, you'll never find yourself
a precious lil dime

you thought you were the right king of you castle
put me at the bottom
sittin in your lil cell
follow you around at you're ever bell
well i aint no holla chick
and now i'm gone you got no one to satisfy your dick
no one to stumble for ya, no one to fall
cause now i gone sweetheart,
she aint got nuttin on me, you know that fool

when comes down to the nitty gritty
you cant find me in her, no matter how you itty bitty her
you can tap her all you want
but she aint got the jokes like me, the ass like me
the smile, baby since i been gone
you'll never get another with this chicks identity
cause they always say you miss a good thing when its gone
and you still be hollerin, thinkin i'm holdin on
but baby, you couldn't, nah, you couldn't be anymore wrong

and she can statisfy you in the bedroom
give you foot massages, put ya in your thrown
then she'll see the error of her ways
and I'll enjoy seein you back on your own
cause aint it a bitch sweetheart when karma comes knockin
fate something no one can be stoppin
oh sweetie pie, my love of my life
its been heaven since you been gone
cause it seems since i been livin,
you started to subside :)

These are all random verses of freestyle verses i've literally written now. all about different things (but spose kinda tie)

theres a million things i could tell you
but none of them would say it right
i would love to love you
i would love to stay friends
i would love this to be simple
either way we gotta bit the bullet and not pretend

and baby i would love nothin more
than you to come and go
i'll break it simply to you though
once your gone
you better stay gone
because now i've stopped running from
the truth, i can see the light
and how you falter the way you do
fool me once, but not again
truthfully we could never be friends

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**Karma**

you broke my heart the way you did
stabbed me right through the heart
ripped it out with the knife, tore it apart
threw it on the floor then spat on the remains
continued to laugh through the rain
you never did know how to use your reigns
but now its over and your thinkin of me
and i've moved on, the tables have turned
and i'm enjoying you swimming in your pain
because aint karma a bitch, aint it sore
doesnt it kill you more and more each day
i know i dont have to say a word
cause i know karma will make you sorry anyway

...............

baby arent we crossing that boarder
so close to the edge, i can feel myself slipping of the ledge
and i dont want to loose you, i dont want to loose him
come to know someone amazing
but he wants to come in, and i only see friends
so what shall i do? shall i sink or swim?
shall i drown in this rain; continue in this game
or shall i stay? stay even though i know he'l recipracate
he wont say whats written in his thoughts
we could all die here if he doesnt do what he ought
so will someone tell me how to survive
cause at the end we both need to still be alive

and if i had felt the same
i woulda dragged this boat back to the shore
and

(Near Six Months) Sober

It’s been a long time coming
And I’m only near two third there
It gets hard, then it gets easier
But I know the sun will finally get here
And you better steer clear

Cause I been near 6 months clean
Sober, stone cold turkey
Getting to that place where you can no longer hurt me
One day I’ll reach that place
Where I won’t want to rip your heart out
And punch you in the face
But for right now I’m sober
And learning my own space

You where a drug impossible to get off
No matter the repercussions
I stayed for the effects
Wore you like a trophy as you did to me
I want a man and you wanted a plastic Barbie
Still an achievement in my eyes
And you? Hardly

It’s harder since you been gone
Better undoubtedly as you hurting games are done
Was easier to double up of you
Than face the reality that to myself I was untrue
I was never a yes girl you desired
Life became too complicated
And still my arm I tied; to dose back up
To keep crying was easier than giving up

But now I’m near six months sober
And darlin, I’m getting over, so dayam over
Over the coud-have-been’s
Over your needle sticking into me
Over my heart that never ceased to bleed
And soon I’ll be over the repercussions to my ego
Cause I deserve the best, if only I had known.

KLN 2010

Plight

Plight

I’m always feeling like I’m falling
Expecting someone to see
And for them to repeat it to me so I don’t forget
Constantly reminding me I’m not good enough

And every time I pick myself back up
Dust of my shoulders and feel like I’m getting myself
Back on track
You see me fall again
And here we go again

Because I feel I always come second in this race
And no matter how hard I push
I just can’t seem to gain first place
And again I’m unimportant and my efforts are replaced

Replaced with how I fell
Not who I am, or how hard I try
But replaced with what’s outside
And I fall, fall into a hole so deep inside
That all I see is black
I sit and cry

I sit and cry
Till I get back up and dust of my shoulders
Start to feel like I’m climbing back up to the light
Till you start to muffle my light
And here we go again
Your voice is always the beginning of my plight

KLN 2010

Pink Elephant

Pink Elephant
It’s too hard to keep going round and round
Pretending its not there
And we can’t hear the sounds
There’s a pink elephant in the room
And we daren’t speak
In case our hearts cut, and begin to leak

Well the pink elephants not going anywhere
We’re still in the position we were back there
And everyday its getting harder and harder
Treading on eggshells, you forget my age
Treat me like a child, every page reads the same
We never progress and stand still in our pain

Well I think its time for me to get gone
You want to stand still and not admit your wrong
It takes two to dance my heart can’t keep breaking
Chance after chance
You chose her so long ago, for me there’s no hope
And you couldn’t do the one thing I wanted more
So you needn’t worry no more, I know how to use the door.

KLN 2010