Half Empty

Half Empty

I bent my back so far
It broke
I swallowed my tongue so much
I started to choke
All for the foolish love
Of hope

I twisted my arm
In the hope of change
Listening to your promises
For it to last a second then back to same
I loved you for all the wrong reasons
And you pointed the blame
Guess love is blind
And a loosing hand in your game


A fool for your look
So desperate for your love
All self-respect I gave up
Your promises never lasting
Not enough began to be enough
I was never one for tough love

A heart handed to you
On a plate
So heartless
One moment is all it took you to break
And every day it got too late
To get up and take
My heart to somewhere safe.

Katie Liane 2010

Dear Mr Fate

Dear Mr Fate
It seems that you appear
Everytime I experience
A case of heartache
And you shine away my rainy cloud
And bring me hope
And remind me of what’s just around
Just around the corner
And everyday you continue to do so
My heart feels less like stone
And starts to turn warmer.

Katie Liane <3 2010

Everything

Everything

Did I not love you enough?
Did I not treat you right?
Did I not give you everything?
Blinded myself for you
For the sake of love?
Did I not try my hardest?
To only get stuck

And baby you had me stuck
Stuck between a rock and a hard place
Giving with everything I could bare
Loved you even when you made it impossible to care
And did I not keep walking by your side
When I shoulda left after every fight?

After all the hard work and tears
I head back home empty and full of heartache
Cause I worked myself to the bone
For you to say it was all a big mistake
Cause boy you’ve broken me down into pieces
Telling all these lies how I never even tried

Did I not break myself down for you?
Did I not water my soul down for you to bare?
For in the end for you not to care?
No baby cause I tried, I tried so hard I died
Everyday with you died another piece inside
And you’ll never know, they’ll never know
Just how it felt how you’d let me go.

Katie Liane 2010

About You

About You

You don’t deserve a love song
But I’m gonna write you one anyway
Cause as much as the wounds you left
Burn me inside
The truth is I can’t forget you
No matter how hard I try
And the hardest thing is to say goodbye
And despite the way you chose
I still finding myself stopping
And feel my heart coming to blows

Cause baby don’t you know you had me
More than a minute
More than two
More than three or four
And the moments I could have fallen for you
You’d have me till you close down
Even the stars would fall like my heart
At the disappointment of returning back to start

And some days I get by
I don’t even have to try
And some day’s baby I miss you by my side
The nights are cold without you by my side
And I was falling when you’d kiss my neck
Tell me I was beautiful
But the moment you realised you’d let
You feelings slip; you’d close up and forget
That there were two
Cause baby, you always forgot about me
It was always about you.

KLN 2010

Baby

so my baby died today and i can't believe it. i will miss you forever i love you. this is for you.

Baby

I’ll miss you more each day
Every second just wont be the same
Walk in with your welcome
Full of joy and love
Now with you gone
My heart is stuck
Stuck without you
Stuck without us

You were my shoulder to cry on
When things went bad
Always loved me
And come running back
And living without you is unbearable
Thought you were like Michael Jackson
Eternal

What do I do without you now?
I can feel you’re spirit saying I’ll make it somehow
But it doesn’t make it right
Or any safer knowing you not here tonight
To watch over me, over us
Only to wake the day with the same amount of love
Like you haven’t seen us for days
Even months

Cause I love you more than any human
Any man
You were silent, listened
And would always understand
And loved me back unconditionally
You’d follow me around endlessly
And now what is life to be
Without you here my love?
Without you here my baby?

r.i.p baby xxxx

KLN

Heartless

finally found the word for what you are.....

H<3artless

I packed my bags
Long before you packed yours
For months now
I’ve been eyeing up that door
But something always held me back
Always brought me back in
And no matter how hard I tried to fight it
You always brought me back in

And I always assumed you were happy in this life
I was the only one
To point out our strife
Trynna make it work
God it hurt
Over and over you shot me down
Wanted you so bad that I stuck round
And now it’s all said and done
I took too many bullets now
Cause its turned into a hit and run

And I’ll never understand how a man
Can be so heartless
Gave him all I could bare
And he still loves himself more than us
Cause I know later its gonna be a knife in my heart
To see you give someone else
Which should have been my part
If I’m still hurt by then
Then its gonna pull me apart

Cause I gave you me
And return I came back empty
As usual you filled you cup to the top
Turned your back and forgot
That this is was a two way street
And people always wanna talk
But they’ll never know watcha did to me
Cause now I’m laying here dead on the floor
Trying to resuscitate myself from all the heartache
From the burning you did inside
From everyone believing you are a nice guy
And me living the lie
Telling myself it’s worth the pain if he can spell L.O.V.E
Surprise, surprise that I didn’t see
Guess heartless is your speciality.

Rollercoaster

Rollercoaster

I’m like a rollercoaster
Going round and round
Just when I think I’ve found peace
Reality brings me back down
Whenever I’m happy I feel bad
Whenever I’m down I feel sad
And I can’t seem to find the balance
Between I miss you
And the needed goodbye
The days are filled with this rollercoaster
And I can’t help but cry
And I wonder if you even care
Or contemplated on me
I spend my days reminiscing how it used to be
Before you changed
Before you gave up on us
And we only knew each other by name.

KLN 2010