London Eye bloggy wog

So I here, sitting outside the London eye on my lunchbreak (which btw I have been counting down the hours till since I started at 9am) and I'm contemplating, reminiscing, u know you have those moments. As I'm fruit to it it the place is swarmed with bloody tourists, screaming children and mr Big Ben to contend with, can't we just enjoy the 26 degree heat without the tourists and babies at least? For moment I looked accross all the people and (some may say sadly) thought 'not one of these could be a potential man. Since breaking up with my ex was probably the hardest thing I've emotionally had to go through (for all who know me will understand why) I spend my days on boring placements thinking 'he wa such a dick and I hope he rota in he'll thinking of the speeches I would say if I saw his weedy little ass again. But so much has happened since him leaving, for 1) LIFE. fo the first time in my life I know who I am and I won't change for no one or nothing, and this is probably the only good think that came outta that 'relationship'. Think of how far I've come in my life with the struggle of people always trying to change me to appeal to their ways than allowing myself to be myself. He suffocated me and I wa dying and now he's gone I've never felt more free and able to breathe than before, it's amazing.
It just saddens me that I've had no one to talk to through all this, and once again I'm taking care of myself, which I've come to realise and accept this is the best way neways, u gotta look put for number one cause no one else will. Saying this I've starting to put mydssires at the fore front, no longer wanted to be the fat kid with the line 'no guys I like go for me cauS elf my weight' crap I've taken time out for myself for the first time in years and started running and swimming :). Last nite I ran the longest I've done in a damn long time and it's a testament to myself showing what I can do when I put my mind to it. And so far I'm 4 pounds off from polemic a stone! Only 2 more to go! But stilt hats amazing achievement and my perseverance and dedication to the course is clearly paying off physically and emotionally! :)

Nehoes that must be the closing of my first blog in a while, suns gone in and so mist I to work! Adios amigos xx