'L.O.V.E'

so here we are again
it's like ground hog day
save your breath
i already know how i'm feeling
and what your going to say

my heart has sunk
with the return to your turf
every day i'm here
i'm reminded how little i'm worth
so let me take my love back
so i can cover how much it hurts

you continue to play your blind
they say outta sight outta mind
well i guess it must be true
cause i've already started to die
and you've shut your eyes

continue to pretend
years gone by; still no end
and i've gone, oh how my heart left
and now you can keep you ignorance
close to your heart -in your top left
for i wont return -thats a sure bet.

Over.

So I guess its over
I guess were done
Once again you've not won
Here by myself and
As i count down from two
Back to one
The road seems less lonlier than were've i come

I'm still heading down this route
Seeing who i meet
And if they're ever be a you
Because if i'm honest
Each day without a significant other
Is only another stepping stone deeper into these waters
A step further to my untimely death with love

I guess staying positive is harder than one could ever have thought
Cause as i've learn through time
Love just can't be bought
And the only thing i've learnt is how to be alone
So i'll repress my reality knowing i'll live alone for years to come
Pretednd to you love that my belief can come undone
When i know that in truth i dont know when i've ever won

Sisters Word

Sisters Word

i'm sorry i'm not there
i'm sorry i've been a shit sister
but sorry dont show i care
sorry means i feel the guilt
that today its become uncomfortably normal
for all the blood thats been spilt
and i'm hoping now i can make a change
and the bridge thats burnt the distance between us
can be re-built

cause i love you no matter where in the world i'll be
not a day goes by when i worry if you happy
and that the years gone passed are days too long
knowing how i've done you wrong and want you with me
cause i cant change the past
but we're yet to write our future
so lets write something that'll ever last

and i look forward to the day we re-unite
i fantasize how we'll run towards eachother will all our might
i'll give you the best day of your whole life
and we'll catch up, catch some jokes
relive the past and start to fix what broke
cause this is reality, i dont need to no hope
cause i'll keep my word and get you to where i am
cause this is a sisters word, this is my promise
and from this day forth i'll always do what i should have done
and do for you all i can.

KLN Feb 2010

Tell It Like It Is (Big Girl)

Tell It Like It Is (Big Girl)

If you aint on it
Then please just let me know
Quit wasting my time and tell me the truth
I’m a big girl don’t you know
In the end it’s all just sticks and stones
And I can’t spend the rest of our days
Feeling this way
So just be up front
Then we can just part ways

I don’t have time for words
Baby I need actions
And if you can’t be a man
Then my heart needs retractin
Cause I need a lover
Who’s going to make things happen
And if you cant be there when you say you will
Then I need to remove you from my line
Baby you know that’s the deal

Date time place you say you’re on it
Then days pass and you gone silent
Baby your disappearance makes my days
Less than vibrant
So lets be honest with each other
And lets jus say the words
We all like to avoid
Baby be a man, stop acting like a boy
And tell me where I stand
I’m a big girl don’t you know
Don’t need anyone to hold my hand

Cause whether you’re here or not
Ill still be getting me where I need to be
Up here, over there, nothings changed
My skins getting thicker, I’m learning not to care
So lets get straight talking for a moment
Dayam, if you dare tell it like it is
I don’t expect anything less
Cause at the end of the day wont matter anyway
Cause I aint a run around chick
And I don’t have a reason to stay
This aint a game; its time to press stop on your play.

KLN FEB 2010

Lesson Learned

I don't know what you want
But I suppose it doesn't matter
You're the past
and i wanna leave you there
You never thought twice back then
And the future won't make you care

I'm not going to that place with you again
I already took your hand to the bitter end
And I came out with nothin'
I went to the deepest darkest depths of my soul
To a place I never thought I'd know
And I lost me for you: pointless journey
But I was naive and willing to be your fool

But now I've grown with my own light holding in the palm of my hands
And now I get it
Now I see it
Now I'm ready to breathe it, take it, be it
Be consumed by it in every form
Cause I can see what's ahead of me
And it don't include you
You were a lesson well learned, a bridge that i willingly burned
I took five minutes to watch and reflect
And then I turned
Turned to where I'm supposed to be.

KLN Jan 2011

Sweetheart

sweetheart, don't you wish her sugar
was as good as mine
don't you wish her richness
reached to fyne
cause you'll never find another i
no sweetheart, you'll never find yourself
a precious lil dime

you thought you were the right king of you castle
put me at the bottom
sittin in your lil cell
follow you around at you're ever bell
well i aint no holla chick
and now i'm gone you got no one to satisfy your dick
no one to stumble for ya, no one to fall
cause now i gone sweetheart,
she aint got nuttin on me, you know that fool

when comes down to the nitty gritty
you cant find me in her, no matter how you itty bitty her
you can tap her all you want
but she aint got the jokes like me, the ass like me
the smile, baby since i been gone
you'll never get another with this chicks identity
cause they always say you miss a good thing when its gone
and you still be hollerin, thinkin i'm holdin on
but baby, you couldn't, nah, you couldn't be anymore wrong

and she can statisfy you in the bedroom
give you foot massages, put ya in your thrown
then she'll see the error of her ways
and I'll enjoy seein you back on your own
cause aint it a bitch sweetheart when karma comes knockin
fate something no one can be stoppin
oh sweetie pie, my love of my life
its been heaven since you been gone
cause it seems since i been livin,
you started to subside :)

These are all random verses of freestyle verses i've literally written now. all about different things (but spose kinda tie)

theres a million things i could tell you
but none of them would say it right
i would love to love you
i would love to stay friends
i would love this to be simple
either way we gotta bit the bullet and not pretend

and baby i would love nothin more
than you to come and go
i'll break it simply to you though
once your gone
you better stay gone
because now i've stopped running from
the truth, i can see the light
and how you falter the way you do
fool me once, but not again
truthfully we could never be friends

.....................

**Karma**

you broke my heart the way you did
stabbed me right through the heart
ripped it out with the knife, tore it apart
threw it on the floor then spat on the remains
continued to laugh through the rain
you never did know how to use your reigns
but now its over and your thinkin of me
and i've moved on, the tables have turned
and i'm enjoying you swimming in your pain
because aint karma a bitch, aint it sore
doesnt it kill you more and more each day
i know i dont have to say a word
cause i know karma will make you sorry anyway

...............

baby arent we crossing that boarder
so close to the edge, i can feel myself slipping of the ledge
and i dont want to loose you, i dont want to loose him
come to know someone amazing
but he wants to come in, and i only see friends
so what shall i do? shall i sink or swim?
shall i drown in this rain; continue in this game
or shall i stay? stay even though i know he'l recipracate
he wont say whats written in his thoughts
we could all die here if he doesnt do what he ought
so will someone tell me how to survive
cause at the end we both need to still be alive

and if i had felt the same
i woulda dragged this boat back to the shore
and